Near: I miss you, Mello. Mello: What have you done to Near? Near: ...? Mello: He wouldn't say this kind of shit. Near: Then perhaps you don't know him well enough. |
Near: Do you know what kind of pain we have between us? Mello: Physical pain. You, on the receiving end, that is. Near: ...Wanting to see each other but we can't. That kind of pain hurts the most. Mello: What do you know about pain anyway... Near: You are right. However, I can deduce as much from your hatred. Mello: Stop speaking as if you know me... Near: I do. So do you. Albeit there will always be a grey area of mystery... Or perhaps we just don't wish to touch it. That is what keeps the pain alive. |
Mello: If that glacial voice of yours could cut through flesh and bones, I wouldn't be surprise. Near: My voice is fine. Mello: It's stinging my ears. God, the cold. After all these years... Near: So, you miss me. Mello: There is no basis for such reasoning. Near: You miss my... cold. That is all the basis you need. Mello: It's ridiculous. I hate your co-... Everything about you. |
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Mello: I had a dream. Near: About us? Mello: About us. Standing at the edge of a cliff. And I asked if you would jump down with me. Near: And my answer? Mello: No. Then you asked why and said you would save me. Death is not the way. Near: If you are truly serious, I would jump. Mello: ...why? Near: Because it's you. |
Mello: I bet you are still lazy as ever. Near: Lazy... Mello: Never walked around much; cropped up in playroom all day long. I can imagine you getting worse. Near: ... Mello: Gevanni piggyback you to and fro bathroom. Rester probably feed you dinner... Coz your hands are busy stacking those stupid things. Near: I eat on my own. And you are the only person who had piggyback me so far. Mello: Oh. Near: I stopped going out of the house because of- Mello: Our rivalry. Near: ...the piggyback was... nice. Mello: Oh... Near: ... Mello: You are the only person I had piggyback so far. |
Near: I was wondering whether the robot, the tarot card and the puzzle piece would ever be return back to me. Mello: You mean Optimus, the fool's card and the L puzzle piece? Near: Good to know you are still keeping them. Mello: How would you know they didn't end up with the trash? Near: You won't do that. Mello: You are always assuming. Near: If you can't have it, you will break it. You have those. Mello: ...and what did I break? Near: You broke us. |
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Mello: How does it feel? Near: ...? Mello: ...when I hurt you, destroyed your things, and wanting to be number one? Near: Good. Mello: ... Near: We will never be alone in that manner. |
Mello: I heard some kids found the secret passage back at Wammy's House. Near: The one where you hid our test papers together in a chest? Mello: Yeah... damn kids. Near: Afraid they might find and read that letter? Mello: What letter? Near: I know, Mello. Mello: ...you broke your promise. Near: I read it before you put it into the chest. |
Mello: For a emotionless person, you dream a lot. Near: You do waste a lot of time observing your rival's sleep. Mello: Not when interesting things occurred. Near: Interesting... Mello: Saying stuff that are out of your normal self are definitely intriguing. Near: Maybe I was pretending to be asleep. Mello: You will never say 'I love you' in your waking hours. |
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Near: I was praying for you today. Mello: Pray? Near: Your situation. Mello: It wasn't bad. I see it coming. Near: Does Mello still pray? Mello: I don't find it necessary to answer that question. Near: You won't break the habit. Mello: Always finding the need to read me like a book. Near: It's like second to your chocolate. Mello: ...why do you pray anyway? You don't do that kind of thing. Near: It reminds me of the look on your face when you do. |
Near: Always expect the unexpected from you. Mello: Disappointed that I'm still alive? Near: It's never easy to take down Mello. Mello: Well said. Near: Stay alive, Mello. Mello: Doing just that. Near: Stay alive. Mello: ... |
Mello: There's no way I will ever like someone like you. Near: It's more than that. Mello: Definitely. Hate, and always hate. Near: And, like. Always, like, from me. Mello: I can imagine Roger's expression if you say that in front of him. Near: It's a fact. Mello: Well, kill it. Near: It might wither on its own. When I died- Mello: Shut up. Near: Kill me. You will win. Mello: That's not the kind of victory I want. Near: I understand. But, sometimes... Mello: ...sometimes? Near: I wish you will do it. |
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Near: I'm still curious... Mello: What? Near: You never decline the offer when Mr. Wammy wanted the both of us to be in the same institution. Mello: Why should I when there is an opportunity to get out of that slum? Near: So. It was during then that you- Mello: In your dreams, Near. |
Mello: It was the most pathetic thing they had done to me. Near: My memories, my dreams... Mello: I don't want to possess any of them. Near: It was a mistake. Mello: You are left with your cold, empty self... just so you don't have to suffer. But me?! Near: It was unfair to Mello. Mello: It's a curse. Near: At least... I will always be a part of you. |
Near: Matt told me an interesting matter shortly before he left Wammy's House. Mello: My secret...? Near: If you consider it as one. Mello: What, about the time when I stole a drawing of you from Linda? Near: No. But I know now. Mello: ...I wanted to destroy it because she drew you, smiling. That's dumb. Near: ...as expected. Mello: Spit it. Near: You cried in front of him, once. Mello: Tch. I had sand in my eyes. Near: Mello, and his stubborn loneliness. Mello: Vice versa, Near. Vice versa. |
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Mello: Do you ever get tired of playing games? Near: An unexpected question from Mello. Mello: I'm not giving up, of course. Whatever it takes, I will win this game. Near: ...I am only tired when it involves you. |
Near: Mihael... Mello: Why are you calling me by that name all of a sudden? Near: It calms you, doesn't it? Mihael... it works really well whenever you are angry or... Mello: ... Near: I believe you will never allow anyone else to call you by that name. Mello: I won't allow you either. Near: But it calms you and you always end up allowing it. Mello: ... Near: Mihael. |
Mello: I'm going to have to do it. Near: You are always saying that. Mello: And I always take action. Near: Without a care for dangerous consequences. Mello: Sometimes, taking chances can be the best bet, Near. |
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Mello: I hate funerals. The process, weepings... It's like putting on a damn show for the dead. Near: L didn't have a funeral. Mello: And it goes the same for me. Near: Why are you saying this? Mello: It happens to all humans. Sooner or later. Near: ...Why are you telling me this? Mello: Precaution. You might throw me a elaborate funeral for all I know. Near: ...I won't. Mello: Good. I'm not planning to die in this game. Near: We still have to see each other at the end of the race. Mello: That's right. Like I said, I will be waiting. Near: ...I don't want a funeral either. Mello: ... Near: Precaution, like what you said. Mello: ... Near: Don't change the rules of the game, Mello. Mello: Not changing anything. Near: I want to see you at the end. |
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