What is The Cure for An Obsession
Rating: PG
Characters: Mello
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Oppressive, that familiar heaviness tormenting his senses.

What is this feeling?

The bitter fall into the pit; the abyss of no defined meaning.

You.. YOU! YOU!! Near! God DAMN! What are you? Some monster or devil?! Manipulating me like a damn puppet... You annoying blob of white, always pale and shuffling around like a pathetic little child. But you're always there, ahead of me. One or two points; one or two clues. GRR!

What is this? Addicted to winning him! To keep on trying! Then... then he will always be there, ahead! Making him feel the heartbeat of hatred like a crazed man! The hatred gets deeper... no, something deeper than hatred boils within.

Impure hatred.

Can't breathe... oh, it's such struggle!

He's like a kind of drug. Lodge in the throat for a moment because there isn't enough liquid to wash it down. And it works slowly and quietly as it travels throughout inside of him. Then he feels his head turning lighter and he lifts up his hands to see them sprouting out more hands by themselves. And he says, "Dream, weird ass dream." Shaking it off and never realizing the delusion leeching on him while it produce something crazier than crazy. Something more headstrong, more wilful. And sometimes, it makes him emptier than emptiness. But it's okay.

Because it's you.

Agitate and excite me so!

Can't quit winning you.

Can't quit winning.

Can't quit... you.

Such goddamn struggle!

Look at me! Why don't you ever look at me in the eye? Hate that stupid cold attitude of yours! Why do I crave for your attention when I hate you so?!

His eyes. Frozen and seemingly devoid of feelings.

It eats at him, gnaws at every bit of flesh and sucks away whatever is left of his bitter self and sanity.

Near.

Oh god.

Want him! (No!) Need him! (Never!) Desire him! (Grr!)

(Hate him!)

Damn this impure hatred to hell!

So consumed with cursed rage and the yearning to be consumed with him.

Only when he feels him seeps into him...

Into his body, his veins, his warm blood... Becoming one.

Then is he truly...

Cured.